I feel torn. I seek my other half with all I have. I peruse and serve in as Godly a manner as I know how. I’m faithful and loving to my partner and children. I work on her love language daily. I have committed to personal growth and responsibility of my issues. I’ve committed to counseling and have worked on the relationship with all my being. But I’m doing it alone. I struggle to be happy with the lack of intimacy and respect in my relationship. This journey is not over in fact it’s about to potentially get worse. I need prayer to persevere in this time of need. I need strength, understanding, empathy, and compassion . I need to give exactly what I deserve and desire with out expecting to get it my self. Pray for me to find worth and purpose.