Megan Schiffner 2m ago • The Goal So I’m looking in seeing that the last time I was able to work on the brave mamas group was two weeks ago. In between that and how worn out, overwhelmed, overstimulated, and guilty I feel for both not working here in this group, as well as not getting the things I wanted to todayin my small in-home daycare, taking care of five kids, I am just about ready to burst into tears and cry for a long while. So, time for living in the truth, honesty and reality. One of the few organized things that I did get a chance to do (ever have one of those days?) was read “you are mine” by Max Lucado to the kids, only one of which was really listening. Sob. In it, the main character, Punchinello buys into the lie that you’re not a good person if you don’t have a lot of stuff or do what everyone around you is doing. It’s hard to not be defensive thinking about it, but I know how true that is and that’s why I’m so burnt out feeling today. i’ve set the expectation for myself and the program I wanna have in my small, five child daycare so high that there’s just no way that I can actually accomplish it, especially within the first year of my doing this and with no help. I get to the end of the workday and immediately have to start tidying or cleaning and then making dinner from my family, I do get my husband’s help, but sometimes it just feels like such a drop in the bucket compared to all the things I had in my mind to do and the things that need to be done. I still wanna be a good mom inside of daycare and outside of it to my own three kids. So, I think something, I’m gonna have to be OK just doing what I can do from day-to-day and possibly doing one new thing for a while until it becomes part of our routine and then adding a new one, rather than trying to add them all at once. and I’m doing a great job, even if I’m not doing everything I want to. I don’t have any parents breathing down my neck dissatisfied with my program, especially since it is a small in-home family daycare, and the age range is so broad.