Sam here. I am a combat Army vet (satellite/radio comms) and the surviving spouse of a fallen soldier (suicide), a traveling nomad currently in Mexico, and a jack of many trades (dance fitness, math/English tutoring, programming, and astrology, to name a few) The black sheep in an estranged family and a lone wolf since early childhood, I acknowledge the need and my dislike of it for community. I joined as I know I need support to be the best version of myself and am exhausted of supporting individuals not committed to being their best. Continuing to heal from a multitude of traumas, I embody resilience, empathy, fortitude, perseverance, adaptability, and number of strengths I feel will benefit this community. A child-survivor of sexual assault introduced to porn early, I struggle with sexual cultivation. Having sustained several injuries and dealing with varying degrees of food aversions (oft trauma-related), I struggle with maintaining the mindset, discipline, and momentum needed for proper maintenance of my physical vessel (vs finding value in overextending it). Those in mind, I struggle with the discipline, self-worth, focus, and mindset needed not to betray/to love self. Conditioning includes finding value in things like being overly self-reliant, overworking, doing for others at expense of self. As a manifesting generator, I am having to find value in patience and slowing down.