Part of faith is to witness everything is coming from God.
What's blocking the bridge over to the faith you seek is repenting and asking for forgiveness for your sins, conscious and unconscious.
When your seek forgiveness from God on a consistent basis, your seeking forgiveness for the sins you have already committed, and the ones you have not yet committed.
God loves the one who is deserving of it more.
If you want to repent let no moment of your life be devoid of reflection (Never go a day without reflection).
The most beneficial occasion for you is to sit before god and reproach yourself, if you did good actions today, thank God, if you did bad actions, repent.
Do not reflect in your actions when in a humorous mood, this type of thing needs to be approached with a serious and focused mind.
You start to live a very conscious life when you know every action is accountable.
To remove the darkness from the sins committed is to repent to God, this is a powerful way to purify your heart.
Nothing belongs to you, it belongs to God.
What state do you want to be in when you return to God?
If you repent to God, the traces of sins will disappear.
Don’t think your going to do any action that God wont hold you accountable for.
Your heart becomes black from acts of disobedience, consequently it is not purified except from repentance from God.
The deliberate act of doing nothing is an act of doing something.