I dont want any thing from any one or any thing

Thought I would share an experience I had last weekend which this mantra from lesson 1 just reminded me of.

Last few years I have been re-establishing my relationship with drugs and alcohol, and last weekend I was camping out at a weekend long dance party in the bush. So leading up to this I had been debating my boundaries vs 'having a good time'.

Early into the first night on one of the dancefloors I was arguing with myself to go get more drugs/alcohol, but after some thought I realised I only want them because I'm chasing a feeling, I really don't want to put them in my body and deal with the bs they bring.

I know that I can have a good time without them, and I was content with the amount I had already had so far, so I accepted I'm happy enough with myself now and I don't want drugs/alcohol, instead I told myself to tune into the energy surrounding me to try get a bit of a boost.... Instantly I got onto the vibration of where I wanted to be, had heaps of energy and was getting all the good feelings of moving to the music, As me and my friends bounced from stage to stage, off to camp and back out to stage again I used this multiple times to really have a good time.

Next day, same thing, tuned into the energy of my surroundings, repeated to myself I don't need anything to feel good/better/get more energy/get on everyone elses level, I can get that from them and the environment I am in. BOOM I'm there.

Now ill be honest, I hadn't actually heard this mantra yet, and it was under the influence of mushrooms which taught me the lesson, but the power is the same and its really funny one week later I hear this mantra being taught and reminding me of the lesson and experience. While writing this now I realise it was the act of letting go of wants or feeling I needed something which released this potential for me.

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