Reflections pt2 · MindChrysalis

Reflections pt2

I have a seriously fucked relationship with money (for now). Mostly on emotional level. Growing up my family was never "poor", but the "we cannot afford that" mentality was all around, the seeds of money scarcity. Add the social conditioning of "you are worthless unless you are filthy rich" (manosphere did not help with this) and you have a person who is riddled with financial fears and cannot live his own life.

As I am getting more open with myself emotionally, I have ideas I want to turn into reality and genuine curiosity for things I want to do and experience, but . . .

They have nothing to do with making money.

I am being pulled from opposite directions and it makes me stuck.

I am stopping myself from going after what I want to learn/do/experience because of money, but at the same time I am not going after money as I don’t actually care that much.

Fear of not having enough mixed with the absence of desire to have more.

If you are feeling/going through something similar and just spinning your wheels, it's OK.

You will get there.

What I am starting to realize is that time(=life) is the only currency and I have to be very intentional what I am spending it on. It is more finite than any of us would like to admit. I should spend it on wealth. A wealth of experiences that is - that will accumulate to a life that I will look back at and say: " I had a great life, because I did what I really wanted. I had a great life, because it was actually mine. "

Take a look at your "real" bank account. What do you really want to spend it on?

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