How do I stop people pleasing and being prideful/arrogant?
So when I was a non believer in secondary school (high school) and through sixth form (college) I had really low self esteem, as I was really self conscious and always concerned about what people would think about me, so I'd try and make as many friends as I could with the "popular" kids in school, but I'd create fake personalities around each person/group to try and fit in so that they'd like me and so that I'd feel as if I had some self worth. And tbh to this day I still people please a bit and do things and say things I don't want to to do and say just so I don't lose my friends even though they're pretty secular and I know I shouldn't be hanging out with them, but I've been friends/known most of them for close to half my life. Another thing that I've been doing recently as a coping mechanism or to reverse the years of feeling like I have a lack of self worth is hyper inflating my own ego to the point where I just constantly look down on people and judge them and think that I'm better than them, even though I'm not. And I really don't want to have these feelings and I know in the Bible it mentions countless times how being prideful and arrogant is wrong, but I just have so many intrusive judgmental and prideful thoughts and I do try and rebuke them, but I just have so many that it gets overwhelming. Any advice would be very appreciated.