Hi all. I'm not sure which category this really fits in. I've suffered from depression for a long time. I had a really good handle on it for over 20 years. My husband passed away three years ago. All things considering I felt I handled it well, for the first year and half. I came back from a trip and slowly retreated from life. I didn't eat much, slept a lot and if I didn't have cats who needed things may have never left the house. I've been doing better or was. Now a big part of me wants to do some of the old behaviors that got me taken care of and attention from when I really sick. I hate this and don't like me much because of this.