Today I had a break where there weren’t any close friends to hang out with,
Admittedly though, with full humility, there were a still a couple of friends I could've hanged out with that were playing catch with a ball but before they played catch I actually talked to them briefly, and I’m not sure what was up,
But somehow none of words land at all, they give me eye contact and hear my words but don't respond.
This happens every once in a while, and I think it has something to do with how present I am/ feeling in the situation.
E.g you know that feel you sometimes get that is just like tired/ your on autopilot/ mellowed out/ you’re kinda walkin about in like a dream state and nothing seems real?
Idk might just be me.
So? Knowing if I follow them, it might not end up the best interaction and wont incur any normal respect from them.
What do I do?
With no other friends available other than those?
I walk to my local park and try out its cafe for the first time in ages (last time I was there was prolly a year ago with my mum + there was a cute barista girl) so had to check it out aye? Break the comfort zone a lil.
Seeing they sell matcha, thought Id give it a try, (no barista girl unfortunately) walked around with the matcha in hand, with prolly the nicest breeze and sunshine/ shade combination.
Sat and did some mindfulness breathing techniques whilst sipping on my matcha on a bench looking over the big playground of park.
And thought at the time, damn this is actually so relaxing wtf, I could probably bring a potential girlfriend here for a mini date.
So, I guess the moral here is, next time you find yourself with no friends or in a shitty state or feeling mellowed out and not present.
Try an adventure like this aye? Green trees, birds chirpin’, air inhaling mindfulness technique., with some icy matcha.
Also that reminds me, literally the lesson after this “adventure” I felt fully present, jokes with the people on my table and all, full control.
Something to think about.
All the best,
Benji