Ok so major one for me. On Sunday I sat in the car with my wife in a garden centre car park. The words leave her mouth 'im' worried about you'. Instant feeling that I'm letting her down. I'm supposed to be the strong provider and protector right? Truth of the matter is, and this is hard for me to say, I have been struggling with my mental health for the past 3 months. My self confidence is at an all time low. My negative self talk has taken over and I'm in a hole. So why am I posting this? Well number 1, because the more I say it, the more it makes it real and I can't hide from it. And number 2, because tomorrow is my first appointment of therapy. I'm shitting it. I've done therapy before, but I need to be honest. I want to be happy inside and feel confident in the person I am. At 38 years old I need to find who I am and accept myself and stop hating myself. Time to stop avoiding and time to face facts.