I've been procrastinating Hypnosis for a while, but I have still been putting effort into learning about myself, and it's not necessarily bad that I procrastinated, cause during the session things came up that I don't think I would've handled well if I hadn't have experienced some of the things I have lately. For example, I have been doing some Shadow Work with a coach in my country (Denmark). Shadow work is very similar to Hypnosis but you do shorter sessions of about 10-minutes and try to "integrate" certain shadows. During these sessions, I learned that my imagination/subconscious can run wild. It can throw curveballs that seem random. For example, for those of you who've listened to the self-hypnosis audio, you know that there isn't "Supposed" to be a "Good Part of You" that appears and talks to you. For me this happened. I was struggling with the Tornado...It wouldn't disappear after it came and sucked everything out of me. Then this creature...a small cartoon-looking half-man half-scorpion popped up. Almost looked like a cartoon beetled with claws like a scorpion. It told me "Listen, I am the good part of you. The part that wants the best for you" and then it helped me stop focusing on the tornado. And when I released the grime from my body, it flowed out FAST and created a GIANT pile of shit. A mountain. And I got propelled upwards and slid down it at the end. Then when the dirt dissapeared into the ground, it created a big crater which I fell into, and the ground closed in above me. But then I got shot up through the hole and it disappeared as I flew out. And what taught me to just let it happen was a mushroom trip I had about a month ago. And I was tought how to deal with these unexpected things through the shadow work. I learned to talk to these enteties and that being forceful doesn't work. Anyways. The belief I worked on was the belief that I cannot change. I felt incapable of being able to change through hypnosis for example. I always felt tethered to my old self, like I was being delusional about the change I'd already made and that any future positive change was too good to be true.

Hello brothers, thought I'd update you. This stuff is much more emotionally taxing than I thought, but I'm proud of myself, cause I just sat for about an hour (and a half) and listened to the beginning of the self-hypnosis audio. Then I said the words out loud that are on the word list. I found some words that elicited a very strong emotion, and some that were wishy washy and some that did nothing, etc. Noted it all. And then I said names of people from my past out loud to see if I have anger and or resentment towards them. I feel like continuing, cause I want to get through the words I'm missing on the sheet and then put everything together, but I'm done for now. Feel a bit drained and tired, so I'll go to the gym instead! Thought this would be valuable for some of you guys to read, cause you might be finding it hard to get through everything too

Hello, I'm guessing this section is open for questions. I have been struggling to get through the worksheet because It brings up a lot of bad feelings, of course. But I'm pushing through. I've just identified that a theme among the girls/women I've had some form of mutual romantic interest with is that I've felt tricked by them. Would that fall under the category of them Being unsafe? I was going through the anger/resentment part when I discovered this. "I am angry at girl x, because xyz and I felt betrayed and tricked, and inadequate, because I didn't do anything wrong"