Introducing myself! · Apex Inner Game

Introducing myself!

What’s up gentlemen? I’ve been following Paul for a couple years in the shadows. I found him from MLD’s channel. I feel like I’ve made some decent progress on my own in certain areas but I also know I have a lot to catch up on. Making up for lost time is a sentiment I feel often. I’m 33 as of 11/12 and located in Raleigh, North Carolina.

To give a little about what brought me here I would start with saying I grew up in an Italian family and stayed a little too close to the nest for too long. About the time I started trying to push myself out in the works(at the late age of 25 lol) my father died suddenly of a heart attack while we were having dinner. My mother was not very independent and had just gone into remission from a battle with cancer and required a lot of attention. This led to several years of me acting like a child basically but also trying my best to be there for her. Typical Italian situation with a ridiculous mother/ mommy issues. Again I started to venture out on my own a tad, with my mother living with my sister for a time, and my mom got diagnosed with cancer a second time. This time is was basically a death sentence.

My sister and family are not really great people, so it kinda was on me to take care of her. It was a 24/7 thing for about 2 years. I had been wasting my 20s away smoking weed and not really doing anything other than training(mma/powerlifting) and hooking up with tinder goblins(being honest lol). So because of that I had burned through any scraps of savings I had and when my mother died I had nothing. Just a half broken down car and no where to stay.

Started sleeping in the car and showering at the gym. Started working as much as I could, definitely didn’t start getting my shit together until about a year after she passed though. It’s been 3 years since she died and I am happy to say I have quit all addictions(weed, some porn and shitty food), have a place now with a buddy. A better car and a career doing something I’ve always wanted to do, I’m a private investigator. Hoping to turn those skills into a business of my own within a couple years.

The main issues I’ve dealt with I know come from some trauma and childhood shit. I did a session last year with Ryan Fowler that opened up a lot of understanding for me.

Always been a chubby dude, despite training very hard. Got recent bloodwork done and found out my thyroid is very low functioning and my adrenal glands were fried cortisol through the roof etc. Made sense why I had a tough time dropping weight. But working with a doc on that now and have seen progress already in the last month.

I’m here to work on all aspects of being a man, and trying to catch up for the wasted time I spent. I have a lot to learn and look forward to learning from you guys and Paul as well. My goals are to continue to drop weight and fix those health issues so I can return to hard training, continue to improve my financial situation and learn more about investing/crypto/how to build a business. And also want to actually be social again but not have only 5s into me but actually have the girls I want. And would be nice to crush the mommy issues once and for all haha.

I’m sure there’s more but I’m an open book! Look forward to being in the community

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