knowing my being better - What do you want your life to look like?
Mate @Vishad Doshi , it's one of the mind blowing exercise mate I have done in my life , as I said your stuff are awesome and my experiences made me realize many things about my being as you said I didn't force myself this time or set too much short time limit mate and I just sit down started to write what are my thoughts that are flowing about What do you want your life to look like? I took a moment to notice that my hate is particularly high in certain area but I don't know why it is so so as you said find I don’t want/like I don’t want/like one of the worst experience In life is to be surrounded by colleagues where they keep on clapping for your victory but you feel like shit inside and still smiling to the outside world Even more ridiculous BS 🤬 is when you're lead is ready to migrate to another company for his own good but freaking recommending you to stay in the company even after I rejected the offer for 2 times saying I feel like shit inside, I can not go longer I said I need rest for minimum 6 months they counter with the same shit universal diagloue of Boomers I am saying for your own good, don't quit the moment I joined the job I knew I am too good for this freaking company and envisioned one day I will be leaving the company to purse something beyond In my experience of working hard till burnout in AWS cloud real time project for my company , I realized now biggest assest is NOT DATA OR INFORMATION but creating a place and path where DATA AND INFORMATION FLOWS NATURALLY as Human are lazy oops path of least resistance creatures, they go with the flow. ................. my job is to critique and automate the current infrastructure laid out plan one day I critiqued major security issue, what he said still rings in my mind It shouldn't be the thing we should be leaving alone but what else we do if our allocated budget isn't meant to cover the security aspects but only functional aspects my lead always used to say