I had a weird experience yesterday. I wanted to clear procrastination, but immediately in the hypnosis session, I got off track. My crown didn't want to open to let in the waterfall of light. I've never had this issue before. So I paused the recording and waited. Then I saw a fairy pop out of my head and open the crown, and the light poured in, but then the fairy fell back in, with the light, and my crown closed again. I talked to the fairy and asked who she was. She said she was me, and I asked if she was my anima. She said yes. I went down a trail of questions and responses until some inner voice told me that I was some word beginning with N, with women. I can't remember the word, but there was an emphasis on it. It's weird that I can't remember the word. It meant something along the lines of horrible though. Maybe it didn't even begin with n. Sometimes I can get stuff like that a little mixed up. But anyways, I thought "Why am I being told that I am horrible with women and always have been? That's not very constructive or useful" but then I asked "Am I speaking to a negative subconscious belief within me?" and I got a yes. So I asked why it was here, and it said because my parents didn't love each other or me. I felt like I was too much in my rational mind though, cause I had to make sense of what these inner-voices were saying, and I didn't know if I was just making it up and if it was ACTUALLY my subconscious. So I just stopped. But funny that I started trying to cure procrastination and then things shifted over to my anima and the topic of women. I wasn't planning on tackling that right now, I was planning to tackle procrastination first to make it easier for me to get things in general done, but also get the rest of the hypnosis done quicker and more easily. I also got the feeling that I needed to go through a rite of passage of some kind.

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Hello, hope you're all well I am now working on more specific beliefs that I want to remove. But it's a bit tricky. The next thing I was going to work on was beliefs relating to women. But yesterday, I found myself procrastinating on doing so. I basically wasted my whole day, and tried not to beat myself up about it or get into a negative loop. I procrastinated a bit today as well, and feel pretty shit right now tbh. But I sat and said to myself "I can't just sit feeling sorry for myself and waiting for someone to help me. I need to at least do SOMETHING" So I decided to target procrastination. But an interesting question came up... Is procrastination caused by a general belief relating to you and your general goals, or could it be that procrastination is cause because you feel resistance towards doing something specific. Or both? and how do you tackle it? For example, is it a belief that "I am a failure because I fail" or "I am a lazy piece of shit if I don't work" that causes you to procrastinate by avoiding the potential of getting those beliefs "Confirmed" Or let's say you want to prepare a few lines you can use in conversation with women if you can't think of anything else for example. But you feel resistance towards that task because you know that if you prepare these lines, then down the line you'll eventually have to confront some limiting belief you have regarding women...it could be that you're undeserving of women/love/sex. So THAT causes you to procrastinate. I hope that makes sense. The reason I thought of it is because I often don't procrastinate going to the gym, unless I'm feeling shit about something else, like yesterday. But I can have days where I think "Fuck me, I have to do legs" but then I almost automatically find myself in the gym and then I might have a little thought "Shit, I really don't want to go through the routine, it seems so daunting", but I just start with the frist exercise without thinking too much. I often don't even have those thoughts and enjoy the exercises.

Hi all, today we're discussing how do we know what's coming from our subconscious, and what isn't? I have a couple good video clips from Harvard trained psychiatrist Dr. K (HealthyGamerGG on YouTube) and "Shark Tank" venture capitalist Kevin O'Leary that you won't want to miss. See you soon.

I decided to make some big life changes today and cut out a couple things I've been hanging onto that really aren't working. I see this as a good sign! I just want to put it down somewhere to cement it in my mind that these shifts are happening... My first big goal that I can remember since joining the self-development community was quitting porn. Unfortunately I have only had limited success. I got really deep into the nofap community, posting on the forums there daily for years (they are big on daily journal entries). I decided to delete my account there today because it obviously isn't helping and I think that community keeps far more people stuck than it saves. The need to get a perfect streak in order to move on to "X" thing, and once they hit their target they almost always relapse shortly afterwards or before and end up right back in that pit. Obviously this is self sabotage and I have done it myself a number of times. It also plays into my toxic need to do things "perfectly" and takes me out of actually living and pursuing what I want. I also left my volunteer position working with a local non-profit that works with the mental health community locally here because the vibe is way off. If anything even slightly offends, overwhelms or makes anyone feel unsafe it isn't aloud, but the problem is that everything triggers somebody so you increasingly can't act naturally and I need to get in touch with my authentic self and learn to act boldly. Another problem with this place is that some of the girls that work there just want to use me for attention because I am the only attractive guy there, but they have boyfriends and stuff so whatever... I need to stop getting sucked into these types of dynamics.