today was day 1 of the comp I have been preparing for all season. my last comp to achieve my goals this year and my last chance to qualify for counties in the 200 breaststroke 100m IM - 4 sec pb which I was so happy as I only did it 1month ago 50m breast - 0.6 sec pb which I only just swam it 2 weeks ago so I was glad 200m breast the event that meant the most to me. 3 sec pb🥈 but 1 sec off my county goal time. I was so annoyed as I have honestly worked harder than anyone and wanted it so bad. even my coach said when I came up to him in September saying I want this county time I was 20 sec away. in 3 months I knocked off 19 sec just ti be 1 sec away. that's what hurts me the most seeing how close I was. the first 100 went amazing and I was 3 sec faster than the split last time I did it. I said to myself when I was seimming that I'm going to get this but I didn't. I felt so defeated I just broke down afterwards as I wanted it so bad and to just get so close was so infuriating. I have another day to go tomorow which includes some of my worst events so that will be fun to try and get through haha but just wanted to share as not everything goes according to plan always