i can't help being weak · The Honored Few

i can't help being weak

I’m a 20-year-old and I’ve been a professional laughingstock ever since primary school. I’ve had bad nicknames that have haunted me to this day. Every time I tried to make a fresh start, my past would somehow find a way to make it harder. Now, I feel like I’ve officially hit rock bottom. I can’t stop overthinking, and I’ve lost all respect for myself. I find myself endlessly scrolling through my phone and barely eating. I was even sent to the hospital once after passing out.

I’ve reached a point where I tried to end my life twice, but I couldn’t go through with it because deep down, I feel like this isn’t where my story ends. Despite this, I can’t talk to anyone about how I feel. I struggle to hold eye contact and avoid going out because I’m afraid of being mocked again. When people make fun of me, I can’t even stand up for myself, and it only deepens my shame.

Ironically, even though I’m kind of handsome and some women are attracted to me, I’ve never had the courage to talk to them. Instead, I always end up turning to pornography, which makes me hate myself even more.

But then I found Roger’s channel. It gave me a sense of hope I hadn’t felt in a long time. When I saw the link to The Skool, I felt compelled to reach out and ask for advice. I want to change my life, but I don’t know how to take that first step

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