Dread and regaining frame situation
We have met 5 years ago . I was very attracted to her physically as looks wise she is my FedEx girl . However , her personality and attitude on first date ( very guarded , almost confrontational and simply difficult to keep any light and playful conversation going ) made me proceed with caution . As she explained later she took me for a player and felt obligated to be difficult . I ended the date abruptly which left her shocked and dazed sitting motionless alone at the table. I simply realized I could easily get way over my head fucking her which I did not doubt I could but dealing with her personality would put me right back in the dark place where I have been before and that nearly finished me . Before I reached the exit door I looked back and my other head took over , lol . I turned around , pulled my chair and planted my face 3 inches from her face saying “ would you like to try again “ She responded “ yes , please “ and the date went great making out that night and screwing few days later . She loved it but was scared shitless as I could tell she never experienced anything even close to that intensity. Within few dates I was very honest telling her “ let’s have fun and see where it goes but I’m not offering any sort of exclusivity and you are free to do the same but play safe so we can be safe when we play together “ . We were both in the middle of our divorces and I had no desire to limit myself . Within two months during we would see each other once or twice a week ( always my place , strictly long fucking sessions not even going out for a drink ) . One night , I woke up to see her face in tears few inches from my face crying softly . I asked what’s wrong . She replied “ why you never asked me to be yours ? “ I responded“ don’t be silly you are here and you belong to me “ then proceeded with early morning bang session . She definitely knew what she was doing as few days later I felt sort of guilty and took her out to one of my fave places . It was great night , she was very sweet and nervous at the same time.